Sexyback :D

2012-01-29T03:47:00.001+08:00

1st cny visiting tgt (: it was a great day!!! Though all we did was to gamble and eat, I'm glad I even got this chance to do this with you (: more to come!! And next year you'll be the one bringing oranges. Hehehe.

2012-01-20T00:50:00.002+08:00

Swim swim swimmmmm!! New year resolution to keep fit is on the way :D B and I have to be healthy this year and must lose weight cos then buying clothes won't be such a hassle for someone anymore!! Hahaha.

Anw I liked how tdy went pass :)

- In the morning we missed the 9am lecture.. But made it for the 11am class.

- After class we went to meet the stats tcher and a huge load off the chest after knowing that our FYP isn't screwed by someone who is capable of doing so.

- Had a direction for ergonomics project

- Swimming!! 20 laps wooo next time it will be 30!!

- Watching Gx's match with Kim and B :)

- Eating dinner at chompz

- Home sweet home without the need to do work

- NO EFFING SCH TMR!!! -throws confetti!!!-

YAY feel rather accomplished tdy but so tired. Mentally and physically. 5 more weeks of school till graduation. SRSLY CANNOT WAIT. I can't wait for the holidays to be here!!! Though we haven't planned where to go but I'm sure we will go somewhere. Time to enjoy after 3 long and tough years. And make up sleep for my eye bags!!!

So CNY is coming...... Totally don't appreciate the loud chinese music that they play in the mall/store.. Worse if its sung by KIDS. Freaking tone deaf they are just screeching into the mike damnit. So anw, cos of CNY I had the excuse to shop and buy clothes HEHE but wlao now damn broke?! Spent 200++ and counting on idk what.. Supre already ate 100$ hahaha but oh well I love shopping and I can't deny it ^^

Off to sleep now! Tonnes of work to do tmr. And baking of almond cookies this weekend. I will do it and I will succeed!!!! I need to take photos.

Nighty everyone sweetie pie dreams hehe

2012-01-17T01:33:00.002+08:00

Omg wtf I just can't stand some ppl and don't know wtf are they thinking. You think we blind is it? Send us the same things twice. Things you're suppose to amend you didn't, ask you to add things in you also never. Grammar forever wrong, and I can't understand what you're typing or saying. What now, you got expressive aphasia is it? Think your temporal lobe got problem omg.. Srsly how can you survive in the working world with the kind of work you produce..

Filled with regrets but suck up the lemons in life and just continue to move on

3RD FEB YOU BETTER BE AWESOME AND GIVE US A GOOD TIME IF NOT I RIP ON 04/02/12

2012-01-15T00:43:00.001+08:00

Stayover at your place :) I love you.

2012-01-06T18:28:00.001+08:00

I've came to realise wtv I said I liked in 2011 is BULLSHIT

2012-01-05T01:22:00.001+08:00

So my bb wants me to blog cos this afternn she was complaining about the lack of updates until the point that I didn't even know what I was talking about in my most recent post. Lol.

So here it is! A delayed post for the new year 2012. 2011 has been a fantastic year with equal ups and downs. But it was by far the best year bcos I had you :) you changed my life completely and I know you know that.

2011 for sch was a complete disaster bcos our schedule was so hectic and deadlines were pushed against one another. 3 attachments at one shot and we were expected to know so many things, totally different from year 2. The year ended off with going for job interviews which didn't really end up very well (just praying for the best) and also with b spending new year's in bkk while I was in spore :( Throughout this year we also went through cold wars and arguments that led to sad endings but it didn't last for long. However each time was more hurtful than before. But I know fights are inevitable so learning to deal with negative feelings is altgt another issue. And of cos the most dreadful 21!! Made me so broke!! Haha but I know it's once in a lifetime la just glad my 21st is over!!

2011 has been great bcos I got travel albeit the busy schedule. From bintan to bkk twice to jb to batam I love short holidays to take a break from reality and spend it with my loved one :) also with all the hotel stays in wanderlust for your bday, hotel 1929 for mine, marrison's just cos we wanted to stay in a hotel lol and studio m for christmas! I loveeeee staying in hotel although we become so broke each time. Collecting agoda points for a free stay hehe! Also with stayovers at your place, sleeping on the couch, struggling to do work or I act like I going 3D2N holiday to your place to sleep and slack hahaha. From little surprises you'll buy for me to make me happy to the biggest surprise during my bday! Kept me in suspense for suo long while distracting me with daidee and other presents first. Lol. Also not forgetting friends to meet up with a lot of ppl that I haven't seen for so long, to have a simple meal and catch up brings back a truckload of memories that I'll never forget!! A lot a lot of things that I just can't summarise ESP when it's 130 in the morning and I'm dead tired. Lol.

So 2012 will be a new beginning in my life. That is if I get a job then it will be life changing. Bcos it means I'll be a working adult!!! And I'm SO NOT looking forward to it. But thinking of financial $$$ I need to work :( so this year resolution will have a new addition! And that is to:
- take up responsibility and be initiative in the working environment. Take in positive attitude and bitch about the bitches. Lol!! Okay I kid

Anw yup I'm done thinking of what else to say cos I'm in the need of sleep so gnight and till I update this little space of mine again! :)

2011-12-22T02:40:00.001+08:00

Throughout the years in life, many things change. People do change and I see that in others as well as in myself. What was once to my liking has become an insatiable urge to resist and push away with a known conscience, I can't control it. Perhaps taking that step was bold enough to say 'hey, I don't like you anymore' right in the face and I don't think I need to feel bad about it bcos I am being honest.

Let's not waste each other's time shall we. Cut to the chase I'm bored and you are too so why bother to keep this relationship alive.. Not for the past memories.

I'm beat. Time to turn in.

2011-12-07T01:00:00.001+08:00

2011-12-06T19:15:00.001+08:00

Can't believe I'm crying in the bus right now. And thinking how I'll be all home alone the whole night is making me tear even more, right now.

The last thing you'll ever say is please don't go.

2011-10-30T15:28:00.001+08:00

Last night was spent at katong. Aimlessly drove around the area and parked at katong plaza. Then aimlessly walked around to look for food. Haha but the food was yummy and the gelato was even better :)

Went to airport after. Met ck to do the bday video for hy. Then after a session of photo taking with his iPad with his newly downloaded Halloween app. Hahaha such fun always come to an end wayyy too fast.

Now stuck on my bed with my laptop and guilt stricken to do some work for the weekend :l

PS/ I feel so fat this is not funny

2011-10-21T00:14:00.001+08:00

Before turning off the lights and preparing to go to bed, I saw the iPad box on the table. Reminded me of how I got it :) from this someone really special in my life who saved up from my previous bday till now, who bothered to spend so much for my bday, I really appreciate everyth that she has done for me. Bcos what I cld afford for her 21st was farrrr off from what she saved up for me. I thank her for being in my life, for sticking through to this relationship throughout the misery and quarrels, bringing us closer tgt to the point that now she is indispensable to me. So many trips spent tgt, loved every single trip :)

I thank god for bringing her into my life and never letting her out of my sight :)

2011-10-07T01:40:00.001+08:00

Tdy is not a good day at all. Wish days like wld just fly by but no, stuck in this situation and being forced to reflect on things I don't want to think about.

But at the end of the day what matters the most is your happiness, not mine.

2011-10-05T01:18:00.000+08:00

A successful relationship is when you fall for the person over and over again (:

2011-10-04T02:00:00.002+08:00

1st attempt to try to update every day! Haha anw though the day wasn't that exciting but I tried to make an effort to take some photos. Woke up in the afternn cos I slept at like 5am last night. Shioookk haven't slept so late watching shows in a long time :') Watched Something Borrowed on funshion and it's a sad and sweet movie tgt at the same time.

I know I'm like an idiot la now then watch the show and illegally watching some more but oh well better late then never. I've already asked b to watch with me again soon :)

Starting of the day was spent hunting for the post office at telok blangah. Phobia cos the first time I went to that place I got lost and wasted money taking bus and cab when it's only like, 2 bus stops away from my place?! Went round the whole neighbourhood don't know how many times -_- thankfully this time I had Muffie to guide me along! So I collected my long awaited platforms ^^

TAH DAH biggo box that I was lugging around the whole day

Then after met b to eat and we played arcade then we went to eat again hahaha at Joaquim steamboat buffet cos we bought Groupon and that we planned to eat it after attachment ended :)

Buffet wasn't that fantastic. Most of the time I was busy eating the other food served there like their laksa and rojak. Both broths tasted like, neh~ The porridge buffet is better if you compare to this steamboat itself.

After which we went to starbucks to talk and laugh and as usual enjoying every bit of her company before settling for public transport home.

Came home to more new clothes!! Woohoo my sis came back from Bkk and she bought me clothes and handphone accessories and many other tiny things including a tigger thumbdrive for only 8$ (Y) so happy hehehehe but she's living the life ah now she's sleeping like a pig cos tmr she has to wake up early to go Genting. J.e.a.l.o.u.s

So this is the starting of the two weeks' holiday. 10 weeks down, another 5 more to go. The last and toughest lap. Each time it gets harder. During this break b and I have got to start studying for the next placement, fingers and toes crossed that we will be posted to the same place! But also ready for the worst..

It's 230++am and I'm all ready to sleep with half dried hair. Study session at home tmr before LAN on Wed, school on Thurs and Batam on Fri :D :D

Gnight to everyone and fei who slept on me one hour ago <3

2011-10-03T02:31:00.002+08:00

Looking at other blogs made me realise that I've neglected my own space too much. Life's such a no-timer I don't even have time to pen my thoughts down.

So far, this year has been awesome :) with many things to appreciate and many things to let go of. I've learnt that it's not easy to let go but without letting go how do new things come in? Being 21 marks the ending of the 1st stage in life and the beginning of the 2nd, bcos soon you account to yourself for the wrong doings and accomplishments, no one is going to help you on that. It's exciting how you unveil life's greatest moments yet repulsive when you have the unluckiest day - the irony.

I'm thankful for everyone in my life and those that left for good. Makes me value the people around me more.

Happy 15th bb. I can see many more months ahead of us! You're someone I'll never regret meeting :)

2011-10-03T02:27:00.001+08:00

Yay with a new blogskin done and a new app downloaded I shall try to update more often :)

Now with more time on my side I can blog more often and take more photos :)

2011-08-23T01:10:00.001+08:00

In the midst of exams now. Though its just 2 papers, but its the 'wna-kill-yourself' kinda paper to sit through :'( ugh hate it esp MS this coming wed omg you better not be a killer paper if not you're gona kill my grades too. CP tdy was a total disaster tdy alr. I was never good at exams and will never be.

Lying on my bed and getting ready to sleep. Although I feel so guilty sleeping now cos I didn't even take my pen out from my pencil case to start doing work, its gona be unproductive if I actually do it now. So.. Guess I just gotta work harder tmr. Hardest actually. The last straw. I just hope I have the discipline to do so. Haven't had it in a long time..

Didn't wna do anyth for my bday but seems like my mom's more enthu than me. Lol so now venue's confirmed and cake's confirmed too. Speaking of which I'm actually more excited for this Thurs bcos I can spend the night with B again (: one of the many things I wish to do with her, at least for the rest of my life for me. Looking at the inflation rates in the market it seems impossible to buy a hse/car when we reach late 20s/30s how to survive in Spore like that..

Okay, so the deal for now is to get through exams and look forward to thurs! :)
Though I predict we have to do preclinicals which suck :(
And next week attachment at SGH Spine which will suck the most :( :(

LIFE SUCKS
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2011-08-04T00:11:00.001+08:00

You make my life worthwhile :) how I wish to spend each night with you just like ytd, though we suffered so much by just trying to stay awake. Hahaha piggly + tiggly 4eva! ♥
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2011-07-19T17:46:00.001+08:00

Haven't blogged for ages! Anw unless I didn't touch this place for more than a year I'm not totally dead yet. Lol

Into week 2 of 3A and so far its okay. Just that I feel more tired every night I knock out before I can even my work. And I hate to fight the morning war omg. Siao liao the stupid buses are so NOT on time. First time I'm on time and they are not. Where is the motivation for me to be on time then??? So annoying.

Have been meeting the animals recently. Zouk on fri, Sunday dinner at Swisshotel for Bei's bday! (: Sat's evening to celebrate Shern's 21st too (: then Sat's stay at Marrison. Yay hehe busy but happy weekend :)

Okay reaching my destination to Ikea soon so gotta stop now baibai
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2011-06-15T23:46:00.001+08:00

Counting down to the number of hours we have before setting off to Bkk! :) long awaited trip has finally arrived. Sadly accompanied with these are misfortunate events like being sick and having tons of work to do in school..

Things to complete:
- MS 7 clinical patterns
- MS preparation
- CP prac preparation
- Exercise physiology lab report
- Fyp mini presentation
- Exercise physiology ICA 2
- Health psych preparation

Despite all these I haven't even completed a single one yet :l the next three weeks will be torture. SO NOT looking forward to it..

K so far I've packed my luggage and now gona pack hand carry. Hopefully I'll get started on clinical patterns soon but I doubt so cos its like, going to 12 now. And my stomach is rumbling. Shld have eaten dinner just now :( pfft. And. Have to bring medication to Bkk. What a bummer!

So long that's it for now. Shall update more soon :)

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2011-06-04T00:06:00.001+08:00

Yay! Its fri night and I'm going to sleep soon :) always looking forward to tgifs. I want this weekend to pass faster cos fei is in bintan :( she left me in spore to rot and die from the heat and school :( so mean. Meanie!!

Hehe. Anw school is getting crazier now. I can totally feel the stress. Stress of not knowing wth is going on?! Feels as though I'm a year one all over again. CP really does give me CP side effects. I hate it but sadly the only way through this is smoking and perhaps just slogging out my nights to more medical journals and articles. Oh such fun.

Its only 12am and my eyelids are heavy. Just found out I'm anaemic so I guess that explains the frequent giddiness that I always feel. I've become like a sedentary office worker status since I've stopped playing netball. Soooo not good :( I'm gona develop those chronic sedentary lifestyle diseases, grow fat and die!! Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!! :O

Okay, enough of the drama, here's to some happy thoughts of 12 more days to bkk, being able to nua on bed soon and to being able to sleep in tmr.

Gnight fei! :)
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2011-06-01T16:54:00.001+08:00

Maybe I don't want this anymore, its too tiring.

Happy last month is coming.

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2011-05-29T17:34:00.002+08:00

From 19/12/2009,

To look back at my life so far...

1. Graduated High School.
2. Kissed someone.
3. Smoked cigarettes.
4. Got so drunk you passed out.
5. Rode every ride at an amusement park.
6. Collected something really stupid.
7. Gone to a rock concert.
8. Helped someone.
9. Gone fishing.
10. Watched four movies in one night.
11. Gone long periods of time with out sleep.
12. Lied to someone.
13. Snorted cocaine.
14. Failed a class.
15. Smoked weed.
16. Dealt drugs.
17. Been in a car accident.
18. Been in a tornado.
19. Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).
20. Watched someone die.
21. Been to a funeral.
22. Burned yourself.
23. Ran a marathon.
24. Your parents got divorced.
25. Cried yourself to sleep.
26. Spent over $200 in one day.
27. Flown on a plane.
28. Cheated on someone.
29.Been cheated on.
30.Written a 10 page letter.
31. Gone skiing.
32.Been sailing.
33. Cut yourself.
34. Had a best friend.
35. Lost someone you loved.
36. Shoplifted something.
37. Been to jail.
38. Had detention.
39. Skipped school.
40. Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
41. Stolen books from the library.
42. Gone to a different country.
43. Dropped out of school.
44. Been in a mental hospital.
45. Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
46. Had an online diary.
47. Fired a gun.
48. Gambled in a casino.
49. Had a yard sale.
50. And a lemonade stand.
51. Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
52. Been in a school play.
53. Been fired from a job.
54. Taken a lie detector test.
55. Swam with dolphins.
56. Gone to sea world.
57. Attempted suicide.
58. Voted for American/Australian Idol (x factor.)
59. Written poetry.
60. Read more than 20 books a year.
61. Gone to Europe.
62. Loved someone you couldn’t have.
63. Wondered about your sexuality.
64. Used a coloring book over age 12.
65. Had surgery.
66. Had stitches.
67. Taken a taxi.
68. Seen the Washington Monument.
69. Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.
70. Overdosed.
71. Had a drug or alcohol problem.
72. Been in a fist fight.
73. Suffered any form of abuse.
74. Had a hamster.
75. Petted a wild animal.
76. Used a credit card.
77. Gone surfing in California.
78. Did “spirit day” at school.
79. Dyed your hair.
80. Got a tattoo.
81. Had something pierced.
82. Got straight A’s.
83. Been on the Honor Roll.
84. Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
85. Taken pictures with a webcam.
86. Started a fire.
87. Had a party while your parents weren’t home.
88. Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.
89. Sent more than 100 texts in a day.
90. Changed your phone twice.

2009: 40/90

2011: 43/90

Looks as though I didn't accomplish much in life for the past two years.. Hahahaha but I beg to differ. Becos life this year has been awesome so far (:

Celebrated Sheryn's advanced bday by baking rainbow cupcakes on Friday at Fei's place :) though the first batch was kinda.. Phail hahaha but we managed to complete what we wanted to do at the end. Surprise was epic cos we led her to finding out about her own surprise hahaha but glad she enjoyed it :) Stayed over despite feeling not so well and next day breakfast at xin wang cafe. This stayover gave me the whole Cambodia vibe again. Friends that you've gained through a wonderful experience :)

I suddenly miss so many people/ memories that my heart still holds on to. As we grow old people change and so do our lives. As much as you treasure smthg, the other party/parties fails to think so. However some are understanding and still find time to meet you and not blame you for being mia. I'm jealous of feifei cos she has these kind of friends.

It's just so puzzling why you wld pick someone like her over.. Anyone else.

2011-05-23T01:25:00.000+08:00

Weekend delight :)

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2011-05-21T01:22:00.001+08:00

11 more days to the 11th :) :) :)

Though you're not responding to me now and I don't know why..

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2011-05-17T23:35:00.004+08:00

Okay okay I know, cobwebs all over this site of mine. Hahaha. Not that I've been sooo busy I don't have time to update, more of I'm just too lazy. Heee

4th week of school and I can't say that it's fun or anyth, but it shld be expected to be busy since its the 2nd last sem and we are all now year 3s. Not QUITE stressed out yet (except for lit review) bcos all the impt stuff only happens after the 2 week holiday so now we're just trying to meet deadlines of projects projects and more redundant projects...

After year 3 I realise how I'm really into MS and not other areas of physio like CP or Neuro.. Just not my thing. But passion doesn't necessarily mean I succeed in it. My MS is cui like shit. Haha but it comes with practice and experience so I guess everyth will just mould into shape overtime? :) But there's still no escape from the other core modules so I guess its go with the flowwwww

10 months and I'm lovin' every single moment of it :D just maybe 2 things: The putting on weight part I just keep eating..?? And of cos the misunderstanding part of it. I am unreasonable at times and I acknowledge that but I just can't help it. Guess its time to do smthg about it now.

School tmr at 10am. I think I can never change, once a latecomer, always a latecomer. Lol! Srsly, I still can skip classes and nowadays I can barely hear my alarm or even my phone vibration (BB vibration damn strong one k) this is sooo bad maybe I shld invest in a old school alarm clock. Right? But maybe it might just malfunction after several times bcos I will just throw it out of the window hahaha

29 more days to BKK wheepee! ^^

2011-04-26T00:40:00.001+08:00

As I'm lying on my bed I'm waiting for fei to reply me before I sleep but she isn't doing so.. This is week 2 of school, reality check but somehow the panic and frustration about the insane amount of work has not kicked into my system yet.. Think being a lazy bum, I will forever be one.

Anw I like this year a lot :) though it has passed super duperly fast (going to be may alr can you believe it?!) I'm having a lot of fun. Despite the hectic year 3 schedule but as long as I keep in mind that this is the final stretch and we're gona graduate next year.. Whooo and the 3rd time traveling this year with 3 other awesome peepos :D hehe life can't get better. Its all about being disciplined and juggling the different aspects of life to live it to the fullest :)

Gona have brekkie with feifei, sok and her bf tmr morning! Then to see sok's R&R haha then off to school for afternn lessons and ending off in the evening. I like the fact that we don't start so early this year. But I know soon we gotta go to school to do fyp blahblah.. Okay don't wna lead to that topic...

So since its going to 1am shld go sleep now.. So gnight! (:

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2011-04-18T23:55:00.003+08:00

Even though this is the start of year 3 day 1, but I feel okay cos the holidays we just had was a blast :) Feel very blessed to have my friends and family around me :) from going to bintan to having Soklyn's bday chalet to flying off to bkk the next morning to Wanderlust hotel to Fatty's bday chalet.. It actually kept me from sleeping on my lil old bed for like one week. Hahaha like half the whole holidays I'm not even home most of the time I'm actually camping in the hotels. But I like!! Always had a liking for hotels cos I like how clean they are and when we mess them up in the morning, it gets rearranged again when we are back in the evening :D so fascinating hehe Anw! Another tentative trip with a few others to bkk in June!!! :) :) I really hope it happens even though in week 8 we wld be stuck with fyp, core modules, ICAs and blahblah but it wld be a relaxing getaway. Like, how to live in Spore with all the stress that tertiary education is bombarding us with?! We got to chill in some point of time in our life and by going for a holiday, its like a comfort food for me. I'm sure it is for the rest too. Haha then my 600$ will be put into this trip!! Lol. Okay, its very difficult to summarise what happened in March and April and wtv it is, wtv happens moves on ;) LOL I'm glad for everyth that happened and did not regret any single thing of it. Bintan was relaxing and mind healing, Sok Lyn's chalet was just pure fun for 3d2n, bkk was retail and food therapy for 4d3n, Wanderlust was perfect :) and fatty's chalet was too tiring cos i was burnt out alr hahaha. HAPPY BELATED SOKLYN! :) HAPPY ADVANCED TO FEIFEI!! :) :) Lovey both of you hehe Okie dokes, here's a plan now: - lose weight cos my face and thighs and calves and arms are all flabbier and fatter zzz - study hard for this year cos my gpa like shit - save money for trips and bcos im an adult this year i must be sensible Okayyyyy so tired shall knock out soon gnight!! :)

2011-04-04T04:11:00.001+08:00

Currently I have one fresh orange, two oranges I'll always keep and rotting orange in my hands. What to do with the rotten one if I can't bear to throw it away too?

2011-04-02T02:20:00.001+08:00

28th - 31st march in bintan was a blast :) as the lazy monster takes over me once again there's only gona be one photo cos the rest is alr up on fb. Hehe anw I really enjoyed the trip. From hotel dinner buffet/ riding elephants/ seeing fireflies that were so pretty!! From afar but def not close up in the dark/ eating awesome crayfish/ lazing at the pool side/ walk on the beach in the evening/ room service was awesome hehe/ I loved our hotel room too actually/ just lazing around and doing nothing, I'm glad my mind cld take its hat off for awhile. And not to say that it wldnt be awesome without you ♥ :)

It was a memorable trip and tiring one considering I knocked out at 9 plus soon after I came back home. Hahaha.

Anyhow, I can't wait for next week too! Cos its so filled up with activities and also the fact that I'll be going bkk during the weekend :) awesome possumz though I hope admist these activities I still have time to plan out stuff that I have to do and can't wait to activate my plan W hee :) :)

Gotta catch some sleep tonight before I head out tmr gnight folkies! :)
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2011-03-13T21:46:00.002+08:00

YAY!! :) For the first time I have so many things to be happy about this year besides the fact that its alr Year 3 which means NO LIFE but before that phase begins let me share what estatic moments I have after...

FOUR AND A HALF MORE DAYS OF ATTACHMENT! :) :)

WHOOHOOOOOOO no more being under Stupid anymore!!!!! That's like the best part, srsly.

And of cos the 2nd part to the best part are the events awaiting!

28th to 31st march : Bintan with feifei
9th to 12th april: bkk with mom and sis
7th to 8th april: sok lyn's chalet
14th to 15th april: feifei's chalet
13th to 14th april: Plan W :)

HEHE so eggcited! :) Well deserved fun after the torturous 5 weeks of 'wo wo wo precarious' shit -_- SRSLY. Only person who can actually piss the shit out of me.

Besides this, for now I wld like to:

- pray for feifei's grandma to be well..
- have time flyy byyy
- have some cold hard cash to drop from the sky
- have beautiful skin cos inpatient is ruining my skin
- be able to loose flabs on my arm/chest/thigh/stomach

Okok that's all for now. Haha I know the rest must be kboxing now while I'm stuck at home to finish my inservice presentation which is on Wed :/ After Wed we will all be free birds!!!!!! :D

2011-02-24T22:58:00.001+08:00

Tgif tmr. I'm glad. Glad for the weekend.

To rest my mind. And also my knees.
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2011-02-09T18:05:00.000+08:00

Meet up with pipi!! :)

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2011-02-05T13:37:00.001+08:00

Happy happy new year #3!! ♡♥♡♥

As I'm typing this I'm lying in bed hahaha. This is the time to slack and earn some money, as long as you're not married. And also a time to snack on those heart attack causing goodies!! Nom nom nom :) 1st day of cny was spent at the temple first before heading home, eating lunch and taking a nap then off to my grandma's place. After which we came back home to eat steamboat ♥ then to watch shaolin after :D 2nd day was to the zooooooo with my family :) :) totally chose the wrong time to go it was like mega ass packed like crazy but it was still very fun hehe :) then off to meet fatty in the evening! Wanted to watch movie but they were all premiere seatings so in the end we had dinner buffet at quality hotel ♡ lovey the food but lovey her more ^^ then after home sweet home to knock out.

Another round of visiting tdy before its all done then probably heading to kim's place after with the rest :)

I just hope all the shopping malls and stalls will open soon cos I don't like it when they are all closed and we have a limited choice of food to choose from..

Okay! Suddenly feel like eating pineapple tarts haha shall get out of bed now! Toodles~
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2011-01-28T01:36:00.001+08:00

Yay finally the torture is over!!! Struck 3 out of 4 on the to-do list which is like, 75% done ^^ but the other 25% will be long and tortuous with another 5 weeks at cgh :( oh well. To enjoy what we have now and worry about the future!

The past few nights have been sleepless all thanks to the exams.. Totally died off this evening we cldnt even do anyth after we had lunch and went for a stroll around town hahah like weak only. But there's shopping with kim and sherm tmr then jod's celebration on sat night :)

Can't wait to plan my trips that are coming soon :) :) to bkk and to bintan!! Finally there's smthg to look forward to after attachments, not like school and exams.. But saying that my money is depleting and the reserves are running dry.. Time to come up with a saving plan.

Anw, cny's coming and actually I'm not really looking forward to it. I don't like it when the whole spore closes down on you just bcos of this celebration.. Cos when you get so bored and hungry at home there's nowhere to go and nothing much to eat. So this year, we're gona plan it properly. To make sure we stock up (going ntuc this weekend) and to have an activity to do instead of rotting our asses of the couch watching tv. I WANT STEAMBOAT!

Okay before I end off my post I wld like to say that god has shown me his direction for me, and that is to put time into my career so I can suceed and make loads of money to give my mom and to spend it with fatty :) hahaha. And I'm glad he did bcos then I wldnt be contemplating about having other commitments.

Gnight everyone :) and fatty :D
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2011-01-26T00:50:00.001+08:00

I believe everyth happens for a reason. Wtv the result is, you can't change it. All you can do is change the way you see and feel about it. I just pray I won't get too affected by it, cos now I already am.

This is the last string that's keeping me attached already.

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2011-01-20T00:28:00.000+08:00

Updating cos fatty wants me too! :) haha I know you don't want me to say that but I just have too.. ^^

Exams next week! Can't wait for post exams time cos it'll be a break with new year before attachment starts again so gotta make use of the holidays well! :)

But this week's so torturing.. Don't like to study for exams :(

K fatty I don't know what to write already.. Sorry! Another time k (:

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2011-01-06T01:30:00.000+08:00

Haven't been using this space for awhile, just wna say that 2010 is over and now its time for us to be adults and enter 2011.

2010 has been one of the biggest changes for me emotionally bcos I've gained some of the best experiences and lost some of the best too. It has taught me how to be more versatile in life. I've always been playing netball every year but this time, I've decided not to join ivp and its the first time I'm making such a decision. It seems as though it was just as easy to let it go but trust me, it isn't. Same to friendships and relationships with everyone. Everyth I did was for a reason..

Anw, putting that aside, 2011 is here and I hope to be a better person, hope that the school will be a better one too, good health to everyone esp my family and to treasure friendships that weren't easy to come by. I hope 2011 won't be killed by school!! And the fact that our batch is turning 21, gotta prepared to be broke. Lol yay my only-when-i-reach-21 wish is finally here! :)

So the new year didn't feel like one cos well, school hasn't ended yet zzz and now we have upcoming reports, pracs, exams and attachment to look 'forward' too. But despite the busy schedule I will find time for us..

Okie dokes! Just read an article on parkinson's and its really interesting hahaha tmr before going to school I shall aim on finishing the other 2 on the train! Lol. Gnight everyone sweet dreams ^^

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2010-12-20T00:16:00.001+08:00

Haven't been using this space for quite some time, a lot has been happening but with too little time to write down my thoughts.. Anw last week of attachment tmr! :) with inservice down it was a huge sigh of relief. Then followed by awesome christmas and a new year ahead. Glad for the sum up of this year bcos it was one of the best and also one of the worst. But soon the bad ones will be erased while the best stays etched in my heart forever :)

So last weekend was spent at fatty's place. With much slackness and having the transport to ourselves it isn't surprising that we cld have put on a few kilos.. To western food and chompchomp and frolick and ba ting and stingray and night safari and prata and starbucks and pasta waraku the weekend passed too fast.. But it was awesome :)

Anw this weekend was spent shopping for christmas presents and watching rapunzel and meeting shern and having prata and fondue which was damn cheap and strudel and having a carwash hahaha I like :D life is so far so good!

Okay, time to have beauty sleep for the last week tmr. Toodles! ^^
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2010-12-04T23:42:00.002+08:00

OMG. Tmr 630am at cityhall. This is worse than attachment, I had to wake up at 630am and not be there at 630. And to be there to do saikang. ZZZ not looking forward to touching gross legs..................... .................... .......................

Anw! Week two down! 3 more weeks to go and its gona be tough. With mid evaluation and inservice presentation and end evaluation, I don't know how to survive... But I am still looking forward to next week! :D Cos I can get to spend loads of time with Fatty :D :D

And my bb is gona undergo a makeover! :)

And sometimes its best to leave everyth to God. If they treasure the friendship they will not act like that. So maybe afterall our friendship isn't as strong as we thought it is. All got broken by someone who hasn't moved on..

2010-12-04T02:20:00.001+08:00

I know this is like random but actually I've been talking about this particular person for quite some time already. The person whom I know for the longest time, yet sees this as a competition for popularity.

I understand different ppl display their own qualities, like you're more vibrant blah blah, but the thing about the world is when everyone says that the world is not fair, ultimately we know it is. We win some, we lose some.

Like in this situation. I win one forever, you win little ones who are under your fingers for i-dont-know-what reasons. Fair isn't it.

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Fw:

2010-11-29T00:08:00.000+08:00

------Original Message------
From: Jz.
To: Jz.
ReplyTo: Jz.
Subject:
Sent: Nov 29, 2010 12:03 AM

Week one of clinicals is down. Zzz in less than 8 hours the second week is here to torture me. Even though I like the time spent there but I guess the torturing part is lack of sleep and not being able to wake up bcos the sun is not up yet.. I don't want to wake up at 630 everyday :(

However the weekend was spent well :) spent sat doing some work before meeting fatty to go to sitex expo to buy some stuff, then off to tampines to eat dinner and watch harry potter!! I honestly think this is the best movie out of all haha though some parts scared me as though it was like a horror movie. Lol.

Sunday spent eating lunch with family at thaiexpress before meeting kim to eat at adam food centre and island cos 3 inch sin was closed.. But still. Haha so now I'm frantically trying to read up for tmr's clinicals and its already 12 plus. Zzz fml.

Gnight everyone.
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2010-11-22T01:03:00.001+08:00

Not. Looking. Forward. To. Tmr. At. All.

ZZZZZ I need to wake up in a few hours. 5 hours and 5 mins to be exact. 305 mins sounds longer.. Omg the torture of 8am begins :'(

Fatty :(
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2010-11-21T12:19:00.001+08:00

I'm lying awake in my room and its 12 plus. I feel damn bad for not going for ZMC but I was really so drained :( hai. Shldnt make any empty promises next time. Cos there are always last minute plans that will make you change your mind and make you feel bad >:(

So last week was tortuous. So tortuous in fact I totally disliked it. Got to have a feel of a goody two student but.. Realised I'll never be it. Thank god I scraped through in the end, just with extra homework to do.

So tmr's the start of the 5 week torture. Loneliness_gal10@hotmail.com here I come!! I think this time I really need to be more sociable if not I will really have no friends and one educator for the next, 25 days. Omahgah..

Ivp or no ivp?

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2010-11-19T00:59:00.001+08:00

DO OR DIE.

Wish me luck.

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2010-11-16T00:26:00.001+08:00

'I am tired of others bringing me down when I am finally happy with my life, and who's in it. People are so judgmental. They are down your throat at every mistake you make. No one's perfect.'

Tdy was such a disppointment. Don't know what is wrong with myself.. But I'm glad I had her with me. Made things so much easier. I just pray for everyth to go well soon. Things hasn't been on my side lately.

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2010-11-15T00:01:00.001+08:00

One of the million reasons why you make me smile everyday (:

16 more days (:

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2010-11-09T14:25:00.001+08:00

Folks. Just let me list out my (forced) plans for the year so that if there's any blame you all want to put on me.. Well. Here are my sad reasons.

This week:
- exercise prescription presentation tmr and now we're creating the slides ZZZ
- neuro prac (fail cannot go out for clinicals means PHAIL)

Next week:
- ms prac (fail also retain)
- clinical examination
- learning contract with ce
- make pants for attachment

All the way till christmas:
- gona die at tp pc ZZZZZZZZZ ALONE AND GET EFFING TORTURED AND HAVE TO DO PRESENTATION MYSELF OMG...
- one million forms to fill in
- no time to sleep/ have a social life

All for my (not-so) bright future career.

I'm so afraid of being too busy, I miss the times where I procrastinate and want to die bcos I'm bored. I do not like the end of this year AT ALL.
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2010-11-08T00:42:00.001+08:00

Bcos you made it the worst day ytd by making me so miserable, you made me realise that this is all real.

& it ended off with yet another perfect night with you. (L)

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2010-11-06T14:10:00.001+08:00

Why does my heart always ache at the slightest things you say.. Its so painful right now.

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2010-11-05T00:17:00.001+08:00

Stupid sis totally pissed me off. So fat and lazy damn annoying. All she does is go crazy about kpop and eating. Temper is the worst that I've ever seen and its SRSLY PISSING ME OFF
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2010-11-03T23:46:00.001+08:00

There are different phases in life in which ppl will reach in time to come, just whether earlier or later. Or some do not even reach there at all. There is a stage whereby we humans are confused and we lead our lives with no purpose and direction, whereby we have many friends but no close friends, whereby we go partying almost every night, where we get drunk and humiliated, where you think.. This is the best time of your life.

But after you'll reach another phase in your life when you settle down and become as what everyone termed as, 'boring'. You only have one best friend, but you always smile when you see her. You don't party anymore, you see a purpose in your life, and the best part is.. You don't get drunk anymore. This is when you know.. It is the best time of your life :) :) :)
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2010-10-31T02:38:00.001+08:00

On the way home tdy I saw this old man, probably around his 60s using a one sided crutch to aid himself to board the same bus as me. His leg looked injured, probably from a fall or smthg.. Then in his other hand was a plastic bag of food, probably dinner or supper cos it was 12 plus at night..

The sweetest thing was when he alighted one stop before me and as the bus was zooming off to the next stop, an old woman was standing above the flight of steps with a wheelchair, looking as though she was waiting for someone. And at that moment I immediately thought of the old man that was crippled and true enough when I alighted I saw the old man walking towards his wife as she waited patiently to pick him up.

Its the simple things in life that we miss and take for granted every day that makes this kind of scenario sweet and loving. Everyone will ultimately yearn to walk down the road 60 years later with their partner hand in hand and lead the rest of the life tgt. At least that's what I yearn for, and I've found the perfect one to spend my life with :)
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2010-10-25T01:05:00.001+08:00

So week 1 of school has ended and when I wake up at 730am tmr its gona be week 2. Zzz srsly the workload and stress level are piling up but why don't I feel the sense of emergency still.. Not to mention I'm super duper excited about clinicals -_-

Day spent with fatty tdy!! We went to city square mall hahah random but yeah its a nice place cos there got kuchikuchi!! ^^ this rotatory hotpot thingy that brings back the memories of us eating at the shabu shabu place back in Cambodia. Hehehe. Yay now got new steamboat place to go eat!! Anw there also got a lot of good food and gongcha also. Ate like pigs (okay I think me only) gona put on muchos weight soon.. :(

First game of polite tmr! Against np, sp, tp, rp, ite. All alternate days wlao tired but at least it ends fast. Nervous to see how the team performs but I guess it will be okay! (:

Need. To. Diet. Period. Someone please whack me everytime I eat too much or want to snack on the bestfoodintheworld (junk)

Kthxbye
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2010-10-18T01:03:00.001+08:00

O.M.G school is starting again tmr and I can't believe the holidays flew past just like that ~.~ so many things that I still want to do but have no time.. Guess there was one thing that I want to do but ended up as incomplete. Oh well I will finish it up as soon as I get my balance on this.

Anw polite is coming soon and speaking of which, joanne and I left our shoes at kallang zzz so loser so fatty accompanied me to buy new shoes ytd! :) yay I'm more excited about the shoes than training actually hahaha

On a side note, I really want to save money and have a getaway..!! Now only can dream of it zz

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2010-10-16T02:32:00.001+08:00

Good night! Lying on my comfy bed all snuggled up to have a awesome sleep after a long day. Yay like finally hahaha

So this week has been filled with training 3 times and my legs are srsly aching and I don't know why. Must be really unfit.. But glad this week's over cos all the games really make me damn tired. And this made me realise how old I am now.. Zzz

Anw, last night was the reunion chalet night for team partick hee :) it was fun though we tooks lightyears to start the fire and I lao sai-ed like at least 5 times and we went to eat macs breakkie yumz and slept at 5 plus.. The chalet gave me the feel of the hotel that we were living in, just that instead of 2 ppl now its like more than 10 of us in a room. Hahaha.

All right my eyes are closing and fatty has been sleeping on me ever since 10pm haha gnight everyone :)

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2010-10-13T02:57:00.001+08:00

Hope you're sleeping well :)

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2010-10-11T01:36:00.000+08:00

Slowly picking up the pieces in life, returning those that didn't belong to me in the first place. Will things be better like that? I really hope so.

Holidays are nearing to an end. One more week before school hits the town again. Oh god..

So far, the things that have been going on:

- Training and friendly cos polite's coming soon zzz super unfit
- Watched the legend of chen zhen, the other guys, resident evil
- Porridge buffet and swirl art at quality hotel with fatty, clarissa and her bf and sheryn
- Reena's 21st then butter after
- Sending Reena off
- Too many places with fatty and eating too much food

Last week of holidays :
- Training and friendly cannot escape
- Probable class outing to sentosa
- Crystal jade korean bbq buffet omg can't wait
- Butter
- Team Patrick's chalet yay!!! :)
- Either nights out or picnic
- Wna go Jb but don't think can hai

Hopefully everyth goes as planned!! So that I can enjoy the holidays to the fullest before its back to the killer life again :s

Gona sleep now! Gotta be in school at 9am for standard chart briefing then play lan with classmates hahaha then go for friendly in the evening. Sianz.

Gnight to spore, indonesia, thailand and united states!! Hahaha.

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2010-10-10T02:13:00.002+08:00

Wtf. Its amazing how the news that broke on Friday managed to make this place so popular again.. Zzz don't cyber-holics have a life? -.- Seriously, nothing better else to do....

2010-10-06T02:31:00.001+08:00

Mobile uploads for tdy. Lunch at seoul yummy, met up with bestie for dinner, and I miss you. Food will probably be my remedy for sadness.

I just sent an email that I wanted to send eons ago. Don't know how I plucked up the courage but I'm just hoping for the best.

In the midst of holidays now. So much time and as usual I am thinking a lot now. Kinda upset about some stuff but I don't know who to confide to. Cos icetotmcfab. I really don't know what to do..

I choose to believe god puts and removes everyone into each other's life for a reason.

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2010-10-02T00:59:00.000+08:00

I miss those times where we could laugh and smile with each other without having the need to succumb to knives being stabbed at our backs. Are we drifting apart?

I believe that everyth happens for a reason. And the reason to why I choose not to be there tdy is bcos of this. Still don't know how to tell anyone about it, even to my closest one. I know this will make me lose my friends, but maybe afterall.. Its worth it.

Or maybe not.
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2010-09-29T23:45:00.001+08:00

I know you will read this and I'm effing annoyed with you. For the past few times already actually. You can go and screw your 'gf' in her new car with her new license k don't need to do it in a club already. BIRTHDAY SEX JUST LIKE THE SONG.

Hate you for making me feel this way. Probably why I will never want to play again.
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2010-09-28T23:54:00.001+08:00

I abhor the disgusting dried blood wounds on my legs. Its itching and hence making me scratch them and HENCE giving me a higher chance of leaving scars on my legs >:( nehnehsai and the stupid wound underneath my leg another nehnehsai. I am going to the polyclinic soon

And hor, I don't like the bcls thingy. I cannot do cpr cos my arms so weak and I cannot blow I got no energy la. And still must study for the theory part.. The mannequin that they provide on the test day better be the one with the make-up, the easier ones. If not my ventilation and compression fail then I will fail. Never knew that I had to learn cpr.. Zzz

Been thinking about netball the past few days. Never knew how the seniors cld give up their passion back then cos during then I had the passion but now I understand how they feel and how they are willing to let it go. Ten years of effort down the drain but still life goes on. Ppl take different paths and though jealously reins we still gotta accept that everyth has an end. Maybe this is the time to end.

Sigh. But when a good thing goes another good thing comes by.

And it came (:
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2010-09-25T23:19:00.001+08:00

I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry because i know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when I lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other.

Hey everyone I'm back from cambodia! Really enjoyed the trip a lot and there were more surprises than hiccups actually so it was a pleasant experience. Shall load photos and blog more details soon! But just glad to be back though I really miss the life there. Times when I spent 24/7 with my friends. A little sad that I fell sick and cldnt enjoy the trip to the fullest and the worst is to bring ppl down along with me. But all in all it was a very very memorable trip. I loved it :D

So after coming back I slept awhile before meeting fatty for dinner we ate mfm it was like awesome cos we cld finally consume some decent food. Lol the kampong days made me realise how impt food is to me. Thank god spore has a wide variety of food to choose from. After eating we went home cos we were tired so we went to rest :)

Wagyu beef for dinner tdy! It was awesome ever since coming back I've been eating a lot of good food hehehe!

Anw just a brief summary of my bday I wna thank everyone who wished me and most of all fatty who has done everyth for me and even made me tear when I was opening her presents for me. Hahaha I love fatty!!! :)

Anw now my legs look fugly with the one million mosquito bites on my leg plus the slippers tan. But complaining about all those makes me miss the trip so much more. If only we cld stay there longer. I love our own group company and how we had the free time every night to do wtv we want. I wldnt mind going for the trip again. Really.

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2010-09-08T00:55:00.003+08:00

Actually, I hope no one reads this place. It is too stagnant and boring and though so I still wna keep this to provide another window for my rant. Looking at some other ppl's blogs about how they update about their daily life and posting heaps of photos I don't exactly have the energy to do so anymore all I talk about is mudane and random stuff hahaha oh well..

Anw!! Last paper tdy :)!! Finally after all the torture we can all finally relax and not worry about studies for ONCE.. Ugh school work is driving me nuts. After the paper I went Fatty's place to help her pack her luggage! Almost all done I guess.. Then after to Vivo to join the class then after homez.

We got about 2 more days left till I bid Spore byebye!! I look forward to all the friendship forging/ the team bonding/ food/ children/ team sessions/ excursions/ and all the other exciting events that will happen. And I hope I won't be so lazy to not take photos bcos I know I will totally regret it after.

Okay till now I'm just looking forward to:

- tmr's cooked lunch and movie(s) too excited for it!! :)
- thursday's last yep meeting and to see the shirt design
- thursday evening dinner with the rest :)
- friday's lunch with family my ah ma gona give me $$$
- friday's outing with fatty heeeee
- last min packing then heading off to the airrrrrrpork!

I'm satisfied with my life now. I can't ask too much and can't have everyth. I have learnt that the key is to compromise. Though its not as easy as it sounds.

2010-09-06T00:03:00.001+08:00

I miss you now. So much :(
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2010-09-05T00:42:00.002+08:00

Studying for CP now which as usual, I hate it and am not being productive at all.. Sigh. I hate that the exams have to be dragged on and on for thw whole of August and September. Waste my time. And bcos of this, I don't know how to plan my time so in the end I waste them.

I have been thinking alot lately ever since 2 weeks when the reflection struck me. We can't determine how things go in life, all we can do is just make the best out of it. Ever since I joined this course, I know I have been neglecting many things in life and I'm not proud to admit that. It is just smthg that I have realised all the while but I can't and choose not to do anyth about it. I haven't been honestly penning down my thoughts here but I suddenly feel like I want to. Bcos of this, my time for friends + family have decreased due to work/ studies and sometimes when I just have the time and I don't have the energy. I get why ppl think of me that way of being a spoilsport, but they won't know unless they are in my shoes? With responsibilities now I can't just cancel on work and say yes to friends. I cld do it last time, but not now. Just can't. So I don't want them to think like that anymore, its a risk fall that I'm willing to take. If I want to do better in smthg else, then I have got to sacrifice. Now I finally understand how someone can live like that. Without friends.

2010-08-29T23:32:00.001+08:00

Fatty just told me it was 12 more days to Cambodia!! :) really looking forward to it though we all still have so much to do. Hopefully with the little time after CP paper we can pack our stuff + donation stuff, get sports day event done, and the shirts!! Though I'm afraid of the culture shock but its okay, I know fatty's with me :) she can do everyth for me HAHAHA

Studying for MS prac now boring like sai zzz. I tried to do ober's test on my sis ytd wtf her leg so heavy I cldnt even carry it. Then I gave up and switched to theory instead. Haha damn bad la everyday scold her fat she also don't care

I told my mommy just now 'I want my birthday cake to be 20 sticky chewy chocolate mooncakes from swensens then put tgt and put candles then I blow' hahaha she scold me SIAO

Back to studying. I want monday to come for a reason! :)
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2010-08-27T22:40:00.001+08:00

Brand new. The post below doesn't concern me anymore :) it hasn't been, just maybe bcos of the pitiful wrench that my heart felt for the spilt second that made me so eager to put up the impulsive post.

On the way home now and I really love long bus rides, just that transport fare had risen and so I can't enjoy them anymore.. Nevertheless going home from bishan gives me enough travelling time to enjoy :)

I feel so much better now. Sorry if I made you feel that way.
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2010-08-26T03:57:00.001+08:00

You know the saying about how someone steps into your life for a reason but when their role is fufilled they will leave?

Well, apparently its not all true. I always thought it is. True bcos I know about someone that will stay in my life forever, but another someone made me realise that if they do not disappear after their role, they only become more of a hindrance.

I know I shldnt be talking about you anymore but srsly, this isn't going well. I shld have never let another friendship go bcos of this. The fourth time I'm writing and regretting about.

Its almost over.
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2010-08-25T13:17:00.002+08:00

Suddenly I realise that time is catching up on us, both by age and reality. Soon everyth that I've been looking forward to will be over, and once again to end up sad bcos we will be in the shithole, again.

Oh well, looking on the bright side, I'm enjoying life pretty awesome-ly now! :D

Gona wait for Fatty to bathe then go to Army market! Then Zouk at night hopefully my sorethroat doesnt kill me.

2010-08-19T01:12:00.002+08:00

Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup,
They slither while they pass they slip away across the universe.
Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my open mind,
Possessing and caressing me.
Jai guru deva om.

Nothing's gonna change my world.

Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes,
and call me on and on across the universe.
Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box,
They stumble blindly as they make their way across the universe.
Jai guru deva om.

Nothing's gonna change my world.

Sounds of laughter shades of love are ringing through my open mind,
Inciting and inviting me.
Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns,
It calls me on and on across the universe.
Jai guru deva om.

2010-08-15T01:00:00.001+08:00

Finally a breather! Most of the papers are finally over now. Zzz last week almost can die it was like worse than a levels esp on thurs night. But glad all's over! Now we can only wait and study for the upcoming prac and exam. But after this we got attachment which is worse zzz

So now as everyone is busy with yog we are also busy with the cambodia trip!! Realised that we'll be leaving in less than a month's time and so many things are like, not done yet. My shirts, sports day etc. Haven't even got the things to pack for ourselves yet. No time no time. Haha but I'm quite hyped up for the trip! :)

Tdy we had a pre-trip to bring the touch community kids to bollywood veggies! Lol my kid was like okay la plumpy and cute I like sherm's kid he so cute lor. But then the sun was as hot as hell zzz and all the soil and the butterflies all.. After which we went back then we went to eat and slack then headed home! Bringing kids out can be so tiring..

Things done for the past week: salt east coast park amk thk udon hokkaido ice cream teppanyaki teoheng precious everyth with fries koi popeyes all in random order and all with :)!

Now I have a super bad complexion with mega black eyebags zzz I don't know what to do about it. Maybe I shld go find a facial centre I need it badly. Zzzz

And my appetite grew so much bigger and I'm growing fatter and that only means one thing: gotta get back to exercising. Shall stop proscrasinating and start training soon :(

Okays after this intense isolation I gotta meet up with all the other ppl soon! ;)
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2010-08-04T18:25:00.000+08:00

I don't tell anyone about the way you hold my hand
I don't tell anyone about the things that we have planned
I won't tell anybody
Won't tell anybody
They want to push me down
They want to see you fall

Won't tell anybody how you turn my world around
I won't tell anyone how your voice is my favourite sound
I won't tell anybody
Won't tell anybody
They want to see us fall
They want to see us fall

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

Don't believe the things you tell yourself so late night and
You are your own worst enemy
You'll never win the fight
Just hold on to me
I'll hold on to you
It's you and me up against the world
It's you and me

2010-07-26T00:28:00.001+08:00

Hell week is nearing :l 4 papers in a week I want to get over them asap but at the same time I don't have time to study for all. Its really crazy I don't even know how to plan and study for it. I just dread the paper on friday. And monday. Everyday actually :l sigh.

Suddenly I don't feel like saying anyth anymore ha ha
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2010-07-20T23:32:00.001+08:00

Its like, destination unknown.
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2010-07-16T01:08:00.001+08:00

Watched a few movies and I really like them :) toy story 3, predators and despicable me. Hehe now got so many shows to watch! Eclipse the crazies hot tub time machine knight and day salt although it hasn't come out yet but then due to time constraints don't know how to watch all. Sigh forgo study time to watch again. Lol.

Have been eating so much I have a tummy now and soon I gotta have a name for it cos its gona be permanent :( sigh this is bad. Not supposed to be happening now!! And somemore I'm craving for so much more food. Soon I'll have an excuse to buy more new clothes.

Okays, time to read a little of my notes before I battle the twitching eyelids which is alr on the way. Lol still waiting for my hair to dry.....

:)
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2010-07-12T03:00:00.002+08:00

3am - up for WC finals! Spain ♥ you better win ah so many yellow cards alr wlao.. Though I'm not exactly a WC fan but finals is like a must watch. How come everyone wants to support Holland ah hello switch to Spain please. Though I like what Holland is wearing their Awesome Orange jersey HAHA. And I like the field leh light green dark green light green dark green like watermelon all :)

K on a random note I need to do smthg about my hair? Talking to SW online just now made me realise that my hair is in a deep mess. Like DEEP. Lol so! I've decided to go boring brown again but maybe a shade lighter than before? Idk man.. And to keep or not to keep long hair. Like really long. Sigh. The hair troubles.

Omg I don't know how to wake up tmr omg. 730am is like 4plus hours away.. To sleep or not to sleep?

2010-07-12T02:04:00.002+08:00

I like how I came across smthg that spoke true to my heart once but I didn't know how to pen it down. So now although its not applicable anymore I still want to share it.

Rule #665: Everyone keeps asking me whether I'm okay. How to tell them that I'm not? If I do then they will question me but I don't want to let my burden out on everyone. So I just nod my head and pretend that I'm fine, but I'm dying deep down inside. No one knows about my agony, you don't even care about how miserable I am. But as my appearance shows, I'm gona be strong and I'm gona be okay.

This stood so strongly about more than a year ago in April but now looking back its just memories that I can keep and also make ppl stronger :)

2010-07-11T02:16:00.002+08:00

When 24 hours is not enough.

Reality check: Week 12 of school. Exams are on week 16 and the amount of work we've been thrown at so far - Priceless. So while I'm still in my own little fantasy, it is time to wake up!!! :l Sigh. This is not happening...

I just van't wait for the exams to be over! Then I'll have freedom. Freedom from school work at least. Then I can do wtv I want. Don't need to wake up so early everyday, don't need to proscrasinate about studying, don't need to pretend to be interested in studying, don't need to do projects, don't need to worry about test results.. Life is too stressed up.

Speaking of which there are two presentations next week and two pracs the week after. Where got time to study you tell me where got time..... Zzzz

And my house is a mess. Ever since all the furniture came in my hse look like rubbish dump. Lol and its making me annoyed with everyone at home cos they keep nagging too much. Zzzzzz

Anw Jod left last weekend and though it was quite abrupt but I will miss you Jod!! :) Do take care and hope you're adapting well in Tasmania. See you when you get back during your break!

Okay gotta end of before the battery dies on me.. Lol last but not least, I love you! :)

2010-07-04T23:55:00.001+08:00

I love how my mom can be herself and how retarded she actually is. Every night she also whistles some weird tune to herself while she irons/wash dishes or just doing any of the hsehold chores for.. I don't exactly know what reason. So just now she was whistling again and as usual my sis and I will ask her to 'shut up' but obviously she doesn't listen. When she was whistling again my sis imitated her and then she said 'why you like that song also ah' HAHAHA like fyi I mentioned 'weird tune' just and its definitely not a common song that we both know. It was the -_- wth kind of moment but srsly, I'm glad she's like that. Apart from her annoying and naggish ways that is.

Just smthg I wld like to note down for personal memory keeping :)
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2010-07-01T01:10:00.000+08:00

Life has been good so far :) except for the tests pracs and upcoming exams zzz. Nowadays all I talk and think about here is about academic dysfunctions that are happening now.. Sigh life is too sad.

Anw bestie's birthday was on monday! :) so here's another belated wish to you hehe. Hope to see you soon again when we both have the time :)

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2010-06-24T01:35:00.001+08:00

Tdy's weather was the shizzle to sleep/nua/do things at home but I still chose to go out and suffer in the cold just to get some work done. But I'm still glad I did that cos I didn't go out for nothing :)

Kinda just read smthg by someone who made me smile aww :) I like hehehe I keep reading it over and over and over again ^^

Holidays are coming to an end. Soon I won't even have time for myself the next 6 weeks wld be worse than hell and though I'm not prepared to face it but time doesn't wait for us, sadly. Oh wells. Brave heart it shall be.

On a lighter note Cambodia in September! :) kinda eggcited first time I'll be doing missionary work after saying that I've always been wanting to do it. Just that there's a lot more planning to do for this project and its gona be time consuming but I still can't wait for it to happen :) gona be awesomeeee

Gotta be in school by 9am (by right) but by left I don't think I'll make it in time probably late. Haha can't sleep cos I napped just now. Now I'm hungry and I can't sleep :(
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2010-06-20T23:24:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wondered back then when I trusted you to make a decision big enough to impact my life now I still feel as though I totally regretted it. What I didn't think of was the fact that one fine day we both will drift apart and find our own life and things that could make us happy again, yet we still linger on to the savoury bit of our fond memories. At least to me. I could not comprehend the feeling of you accepting the way I am now but seeing you in my state, I think I can finally hold my breath for once. I feel sad, with no one that will understand my feelings because they are the feelings of a fool. But that isn't the most important thing. What really matters is she not even wanting to appreciate this.

2010-06-19T02:08:00.001+08:00

Omg I'm so tired.. My muscles can't move anymore and my brain can't work anymore. I feel like sleeping on and on till there's no tmr. Like wake up at night the next day to eat/drink/do wtv business then sleep again. I just need to sleep :(

End of week 1 of holidays. Soon it'll be the end of week 2 and the hectic life starts again. Zzz I don't want holidays to pass so fast..... I haven't been studying this isn't good at all la sometime time refuses to be on my side. Sigh.

My eyes are closing on me I cannot take it alr. I need to sleep. My beauty sleep. Nights :)
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2010-06-17T02:00:00.000+08:00

K testing testing from the email bloggerrrrr. This is too cool but then my email name like abit the long huh. Hahaha okay time to test if I can put photos from my phone!

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2010-06-09T00:54:00.000+08:00

Cp was a total killer. The stuff to learn was never ending, the waiting time for the prac was like.. I don't even know how to describe it and the question format was... Weird. Zzz so dumb la stress over this and its the first prac only. Zzz good luck for the rest of the pracs for cp la zzz

So tired. School's draining me so I can't wait for the short break to come! :) although we still have to study but at least its an es-ca-pe from school tmeporarily. Teehee.

Its 1plus and I wna head to bed for a recovery sleep. Hope the fat one has no more tummyache! :)

2010-06-07T00:29:00.007+08:00

I don't want all good things to come to an end.

Ytd off to the zoo with the fat one and it was a great day :) Cos although we went in the afternn/ it was raining when we were in the bus but we've got to see most of the animals that I wanted to :) So it was a frutiful trip! Could have taken more photos but my camera decided to die on me halfway.. So had to resort to handphones hahaha. Starving ppl had trouble finding where we wanted to eat but in the end ate till my tummy could explode. Then after to meet the others for awhile before heading home. It was good good good! :) :) :)

Totally nuaed the whole day tdy. Feel like my bones are gona break and my muscles are wasting away.. Feel so.. Nua. Hahaha and I know I have plenty of things to read up on esp when CP prac is like this coming Tuesday but I don't feel the urge to even read up on things I never heard of before. This is bad. I'm gona read Pulmonary Physio after this till I fall asleep.

Some photos to spice up this little life:

So cute I like otters ^^

Like the fei de c:

ZHU

HAHA

So grumpy

She loves it

HAHAHAHAH

Alright its almost 2am now thinking whether I shld read my book cos school starts at 9am tmr maybe not? Hahaha shall get ready for bed now. Gnight peeps :)

2010-06-06T02:05:00.000+08:00

2010-06-01T22:01:00.002+08:00

Who at the age of 21 drives a bmw, lives in a palace and live life like there's no tmr?

.......... Only you la. Hahahaha while kids like us suffer. Sigh. Life is unfair.

Sleepy sleepy sleepy. Now sleepy sounds and look very weird hahaha have to go do research soon and then fill in stuff edit photos blahblah zzz so lazy. Even lazier to update my ipod its dying with its lack of songs this is unacceptable.

Anw just wanted to say that in life not everyth can go our way. We have to learn how to give and let go. Everytime you commit to smthg, you lose smthg else. We realise the importance of it only when we lose it as cliche as it sounds. But its not time to give up, its time to let go and pursue your other dreams that you know its worth for :) :)

Okay I planned to at least read some stuff for the night but I guess it not gona happen.. Hahaha. Gona just... Slack like how I always do. Goodbye!

2010-05-31T00:24:00.002+08:00

I've totally wasted the long weekend rotting around and eating like no tmr.. Srsly leading the glutton lifestyle. Countless read ups to do but everytime I attempt to read I fall asleep. This is so not working out for me... I gotta learn to be more self disciplined!

Anw I baked tdy after much proscrascination ^^

School yet again tmr sigh sad life but will hang in there! And I've got a whole strings of movies that I wna catch soon again! :)

2010-05-29T16:40:00.003+08:00

Suffering in silence.

A bittersweet drug that enpowers me in her soul. Bitter because I cannot have it, but sweet enough to let me savour it. The consequence of falling too deep is to have that almost numb feeling in your heart, so quiet yet torturous inside. The withdrawal symptoms are too much to handle. I crave for you.

Do you feel the same way too?

2010-05-18T14:58:00.002+08:00

Elearning tdy! ^^ So its one of the only chances to wake up in the afternn and still not worry about anyth. Hahaha but now the dilemma of going to study or to just roll around at home...

2010-05-15T02:01:00.003+08:00

Where the skies are blue.

I feel a need to release my system. There's smthg inside that's bugging me, like a stone on my chest. Bcos I don't know what is going on anymore. Ever since last year, so many things have changed. I lost a lot, but I gained a lot too. I believe in the purpose of each prescence, but I hate the fact that the drift had to be this way. It's like, I don't know what's going on anymore. I used to have a mind on my own, and I shld have listened to it rather than you. You brought me to this stage. Now you're happily fswot, I am.. Still here. I finally realised the importance of having a balance. I can't balance my time btw everyone. My mood basically controls my mind. Just like tdy, totally gave myself away. But I understand people come and go, I do.

I'm just lost.

But I still thank god for you.

2010-05-12T01:17:00.001+08:00

Finally bought my BB ^^ Though its still giving me problems but I hope everyth will settle soon!

Doing some project work now I swear Imma IT noob la don't even know how to use the stupid google document thingy. Zzz wasting my name figuring out how to use it. In the end I only spent 10mins writing my stuff out. Zzz

Damn tired alr la need to sleep and laptop batt's dying. Hahaha gnight :)

2010-05-04T21:35:00.002+08:00

Intelligent Beauty.

I always thought that by trusting in my feelings I won't regret things that I choose or decide to do.. Cos ultimately it is my decision. Guess somewhere something went wrong. To believe in you and fall out with one of the bestest was by far one of the most foolish things I've done so far. Throwing away the gold and picking up the rubbish is my forte, anyway. I shldnt put money in the lot knowing that it will never come back. The money will always be stuck there, like an idiot.

So now its time to start afresh and hope for a new path to shine light on this gloomy path. It may be tough but I'm still gona be at all smiles fighting all the way :)

And I know you'll give me courage and happiness along the way, yes? :) If you say no you are gona break my heart. Hahaha you're the best :)

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8ut srsly, I don't know what to do now. You make me as sad as a cow. Will you spend time with me?

2010-05-01T02:05:00.002+08:00

Everyth's gone except for cough and itchy throat so far :) Although its painful but it beats last week when I died in bed. Srsly dont think I wna be in that situation any time soon again :l

School's becoming hectic but I spend it as though we have nothing much to do at all. Hahaha oh well focus next week! No more playing or what so ever alr :( Life is gona suck.

Ahhh I wna watch many more movies that are coming out and eat many more food that we've been wanting to try. Fooooooood food food food food :) :)

okay gona crash now gnight :)

2010-04-26T17:14:00.002+08:00

I've actually typed out a whole chunk but at the end I've concluded they're just balderdash. I'm not understanding enough. Sorry.

2010-04-20T22:48:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BDAY CHIUBEE ^^

HAHAHHAHAHA the best time to force you to do things you dont wna do. This was the best shot besides the photos in the camera but the memory card cannot read. Lol hope you enjoyed your day c: c: c:

2010-04-19T22:46:00.001+08:00

Hate you. This is so torturing. I cant even nap well here, bursting in cold sweat, thinking of what to do next. Awfully cold weather, but I'm sweating bcos of you. You're probably having a night's laughter now and I have to think of how to please you.

Hate You.